Sunday, October 9, 2016

The fear that may be... Parenthood jitters... the day I felt so helpless

The past 3 weeks had been tough.

It was just two weeks ago that I was pretty much resigned to the fact that my precious boy would have signs of ASD.

Came back to NZ after visiting a GP and also psychologist in Malaysia. But even after being back in a country where health and medical wise, it would be much more a sigh of relief, I still felt an air of constant worry and I had been losing sleep just thinking of what might be. He is already 21 months, I thought maybe we are worrying too much.

Even after 2-3 days of being back, Ezra still showed signs of asd characteristics and it was the most painful thing to watch. As a father, after months of grooming, trying to educate, sitting with him trying to teach him what every parents would dream of, that reciprocal communication which was pretty much absent the entire time. :(

I prayed and prayed just thinking and thinking. If there was one possibility that he just might be a classic later than usual in terms of male toddler development, I would be very glad to hear it.

And true enough, on 7/8 October 2016, he showed small signs that he may be normal after all. He had more eye contact and was responding to his hand being called more. In a quiet environment that is. Just 3 days after the first signs, his progress was even more obvious with traits of him running to his mom for comfort and more observant of his surroundings. It was at the zoo with JoJo, Terrence and their daughter Jazebelle that he finally has his first social interaction with another toddler. I reckon that I wore the widest smile in that zoo that day 8/10. :)

Let's pray and continue to believe and work hard to ensure my boy will develop more in the days to come. We will have a consultant for ABA therapy visit to assess Ezra on Tuesday.

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